Mmeso Inspires: What Did I Not Do

At first I thought Isaiah Maduka was the only option I had,

Because age was no longer on my side,

What did I not do to make it work,

I endured his insults,

I do his laundry every weekend,

I cooked his food to his taste…

I mean to his taste.

In front of his friends he had shouted that my stew was salty,

But packed them to work the following day for brunch.

What did I not endure?

I thought I will be hopeless if I lose him,

So I clung tightly to hope,

Hoping he will change some day,

Whenever there is an important occasion in his life…

I am always forgotten unless I reminds him,

But he calls to remind me of his laundry yet undone,

His food yet uncooked,

Which he publicly criticize but privately enjoys,

All in a bid to humiliate me,

Yes…

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He forgot to inform me of his Thanksgiving party,

Yet he calls to tell me that he has an urge,

And so I had to contend with a man that has high sexual libido,

What did I not do?

When I noticed Isaiah Maduka was cheating on me with a woman old enough to be his grandmother,

I ignored or rather endured it,

Because I don’t want to spoil things for myself,

I knew I was being desperate but I refused to accept it,

And so I didn’t realize my worth until the day he asked me to leave his house in the middle of the night,

Yes… I realized my worth when I pleaded with him to get me a pain relief and he said he got no money,

Yet he got pairs of lovely shoes for his woman friend on his way back and make sure I see them,

I realized my worth when he said that I am actually desperate for him,

I realized my worth over and over again when he abused my people and called me all sort of names,

I cannot do this for sure.

I quietly left,

No drama,

No quarrel,

No emotions.

Three months later I found my missing rib and I was surprised by how well I could be loved.

Now…

I found out that age was actually on my side.