This year has been a hard fight, fighting for mental, your motivation, people around and your community. The changes are clear, integrating and reintegrating ourselves in a new found world, with its serenity.
Days of lockdown come with its despondency, fighting to keep the motivation going, at some point you faltered, because you feel like you’re draining and finding it very difficult to live in a world that is not yours, a world wasn’t design for your features
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The struggle to adapt become invisible fight, you literally do almost the same thing every single day, and your energy wasn’t at it, to help yourself in a new found world seem impossible despite the efforts.
The joy and happiness you get from seeing the people you love from time to time, is above the moon, the mood is hundred percent what you want, and that’s part of human being which is natural.
And then come unforseen circumstances which you weren’t able to handle and not within your capacity to control it, the joy and happiness were taken away from you, and the energy keep getting lower.
When you began to see some positive outcomes that are coming out of the uncertainty, that become a huge relief as finally there is a good news, and your focus is how to behave and act towards the new development, which you must embrace.
The days of loneliness and solitude are over, and you have lost your old self and your new self, you have not fully embrace. And there is a struggle over what you used to be and what the circumstances have made you to be.
Gradually what transpired in the days of lockdown become your stronghold, the time you needed only your own energy to drive forward, surrounding positivity around yourself and it is paying off, but it seems like you don’t need these people again, you feel so much comfortable at your comfort zone, that’s within your space and what the society has made you to become.
Life is full of changes, some changes are inevitable and you have to deal with it unless it will deal with you. It may have strengthen you or mar you, but one thing is certain, you’re fighting for your life.
